the 17 day stay in the hospital...
for most ppl who probably already know that I was admitted to the hospital, I was in due to a subclavian vein clot as I have a cervical rib. ok I just googled and it says only 1 in 500 has this extra cervical rib and even rarer are ppl with 2! and I am the rare person! omg! anw the doc found the left one much larger than the right one thus causing the vein to be narrowed and thus e clot. anw the clot is removed, though I will need an operation 3 mths later to remove the bone.
"Children born with cervical ribs develop early childhood cancer at a rate 125 times higher than the general population" wtf? lucky not for me..
anw after so damn long in the hospital, really give me alot of feelings. ok the first, though the rather unlikely, but, after staying so long in the hospital, I do have some feeling of unwillingnes to leave there. of cos not i want/like to stay there, but I am realy easily attached to things; I mean it's an environment I am been in for weeks. I will miss WARD 41!, if "fate" should have it, I might be back to the ward for my surgery 3 mths later
and if you make friends with the patients there, with the nurses there, you know, there is really some sort of attachment. example, i made friend with a 45 year old malay guy who was 1 bed beside me when i was admitted and also another 21 year old boy (cos he look like sec 4) when I left. Due to my procedure, I was transferred to ICU for one night then transferred to another ward, but somehow there is some complication, went to ICU, and went back to ward 41 again. :o
anyway, more things abt the stay. Hospital, still is some place you dun want to stay, it sure is demoralising, especially if you keep wanting to get out of there, but yet the longer you are staying in there, and i m sure anyone will admit, being in that place, totally separates you from the outside world and makes you feel like you are no longer part of the world out there.
also going into the hospital really makes you feel one thing, to really take care of your own health, thougnh i didn't go in due to any health issues but due to a born thingy, but after all the needles and other pains which I went through,no doubt helplessness at times, you know you wun want to be in there yourself.
and 1 thing after getting out of the hospital is, i think, I feel I have been given a new lease of life, definitely i feel fundamentally different. maybe is the lack of exposure to the outside world that's all? I duno.
but 1 thing, should have challenged everything based on faith, half hearted efforts give half hearted results and results in super long stay in the hospital.
"Children born with cervical ribs develop early childhood cancer at a rate 125 times higher than the general population" wtf? lucky not for me..
anw after so damn long in the hospital, really give me alot of feelings. ok the first, though the rather unlikely, but, after staying so long in the hospital, I do have some feeling of unwillingnes to leave there. of cos not i want/like to stay there, but I am realy easily attached to things; I mean it's an environment I am been in for weeks. I will miss WARD 41!, if "fate" should have it, I might be back to the ward for my surgery 3 mths later
and if you make friends with the patients there, with the nurses there, you know, there is really some sort of attachment. example, i made friend with a 45 year old malay guy who was 1 bed beside me when i was admitted and also another 21 year old boy (cos he look like sec 4) when I left. Due to my procedure, I was transferred to ICU for one night then transferred to another ward, but somehow there is some complication, went to ICU, and went back to ward 41 again. :o
anyway, more things abt the stay. Hospital, still is some place you dun want to stay, it sure is demoralising, especially if you keep wanting to get out of there, but yet the longer you are staying in there, and i m sure anyone will admit, being in that place, totally separates you from the outside world and makes you feel like you are no longer part of the world out there.
also going into the hospital really makes you feel one thing, to really take care of your own health, thougnh i didn't go in due to any health issues but due to a born thingy, but after all the needles and other pains which I went through,no doubt helplessness at times, you know you wun want to be in there yourself.
and 1 thing after getting out of the hospital is, i think, I feel I have been given a new lease of life, definitely i feel fundamentally different. maybe is the lack of exposure to the outside world that's all? I duno.
but 1 thing, should have challenged everything based on faith, half hearted efforts give half hearted results and results in super long stay in the hospital.
posted by yuan @ 8:18 AM
